The History Of Love.

“Once upon a time, there was a boy. He lived in a village that no longer exists, in a house that no longer exists, on the edge of a field that no longer exists, where everything was discovered, and everything was possible. A stick could be a sword, a pebble could be a diamond, a tree, a castle. Once upon a time, there was a boy who lived in a house across the field, from a girl who no longer exists. They made up a thousand games. She was queen and he was king. In the autumn light her hair shone like a crown. They collected the world in small handfuls, and when the sky grew dark, and they parted with leaves in their hair.

Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl, and her laughter was a question he wanted to spend his whole life answering.” 
― Nicole Krauss, The History of Love

I hate it when my feelings are not in my control. It makes me feel lost, less independent and unforgivably weak. What an unexpected surprise it was when you first walked in to the room and smiled at me. I smiled back at you like I always do, but this time there was something different. I found myself looking at you twice, but not really knowing what that meant and not thinking about you after you left the room again. After some time there was a situation that made us talk. And then I knew what I saw in you. Life. You're like this shining pearl that I want to hide from the rest of the world. Cause your mind is the most beautiful book I've ever heard of. It's a secret that I can't find out. I just get quotes from here and there and fall in love with every single one of them. 
When someone has as beautiful soul, fire for life, a little bit of craziness and a right way to make laugh, he's made to be my friend. Cause you don't find pearls from every street corner. They are well hidden in places where you'd never think to search. And when you find one, you will know. 
Rakkaudella, 
Henniina.  

Wrexham familylife

Of course I get sick on my first week in UK. Luckily I'm still at my sisters place in Wrexham. Hallucinating about apple trees beside my bed and murderers walking around the house would be kinda awful at a hostel. Though I can't say it's fun here either.

Past week I've spent in Wales, town called Wrexham. Suburb area Plas Madoc. I love it here, when you walk out the door you see the mountains and it's a lot more warmer than in Finland this time of year. My sister came here first time two years ago to work in a hotel with her best friend. (They worked in town called Llangollen near here, it's the most beautiful little town I've ever seen, like straight from a storybook.) Soon she found a boyfriend, got engaged and had a baby. One month ago she had another one. My sister is an amazing mom and her two girls are adorable. This post is just pictures pictures and more pictures of Plas Madoc and the girls. We've had a lovely familyweek.

Plas Madoc. 

Pretty little girls  

 Amelia Irene Jessica

Emma Sofia Charlotte

Rakkaudella,
Henniina.

Goodbyes

Helsinki-Vantaa airport and six hours to kill. And I really don't mind. I'm smiling to everyone who walks past my table. Nothing could ruin this day. Actually I feel like walking up to a stranger and asking if he'd like to get wasted with me. But maybe it's better to just stay sober.

I have been trying to get to that sad goodbye-mood all morning. But I can't. I had that few days ago, now I'm just feeling so free. And happy. I'm leaving today. And I really tried to get to the mood to write a heartbreaking goodbye-letter to everyone I love. But there are no sad words inside me right now. So I'm glad to post you the one I wrote last Saturday.

23.2.2013

"I always thought leaving is easy. And it is for me. But this time it broke my heart a little bit. When I hugged my best friend for the last time I didn't want to let go. She’s the single best thing in my life. No-one else can say they truly know who I am, because I have built such walls around me. I know I can handle anything on my own, I’ll be fine anywhere. I’ll find a way to be ok. Be happy. But when she’s around it’s just so much easier.

I love you dad. I love you mom. I love my friends. I love my whole family. But I’m leaving today, and I’m not looking back. I’m on a pursuit of happiness. And if you can’t understand that, you were one of those who didn't know me at all. This is me. Half the time I don’t even know what the fuck I’m doing. But I don’t need it to be easy, I just want it to be worth it. I don’t want my life to be a dictionary. I want it to be the most beautiful and colorful poem out there.

 So let me go. Just let me go. " 

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Rakkaudella, 

Henniina.